You Always Have a Choice. And You can Make it When You’re Ready.

As a little girl, I always heard about two great professions - Doctor and Engineer. Till class 8, I believed I was going to be a doctor. And till 12th, an engineer. I was doing my MBA in Finance when I realised ‘I didn’t want it’. I was capable, yes, but I didn’t want to choose it knowing that there was probably a tiny chance of me doing something I always dreamt of - becoming a writer. So I gave it a shot. And boom, I get paid to do something I love.

Honestly, after more than 2.5 years of doing this, I have no intention of going back. I am meant to be a writer. Be it the B2B stuff, or the NGO stories I write, or these blogs and stories I create from my experience and imagination. Some years down the line, I might discover another new angle to writing, and pursue that too. Or maybe something which will just require my creative outlet. I will make that choice when I want to. For now, this is my jig. And I can’t imagine I almost threw it out of the window. Almost.

You may say I got lucky here. Not many people have the resources and freedom to make that choice for themselves at a given point of time. Sometimes life makes those decisions for us… And we choose to play along, keeping our responsibilities, society’s demands and people we love above our seemingly-selfish-and-not-so-important-dreams. And it’s not too bad. Not always. You learn to flow with the tide. Even enjoy it when you see people around you happy. And probably somewhere down the line, you get another chance to relive your dreams. You take it this time, aware that it was always important to you, and people who love you will understand.

Age is no bar. And I’m personally enamoured with several people who have proved that. Maybe you’re supposed to be one of those. It’s okay too. All in good time.

Just know that whatever life throws at you, you always have a choice. And there is nothing wrong about choosing to go with your dreams or even choosing to let it go for now. You can make that decision, in a hurry, or by carefully evaluating the pros and cons… Sometimes under pressure because you don’t feel courageous enough to choose your dreams right now. It’s okay. Give it time. Let go of the guilt and regret. And hope for the best.

I will leave you at that. I know Hope at times sounds like a hopeless thing to do. It seems to me too, often. But on the good days, I tell myself I am going to be there for myself before relying on someone else to do it for me. And while I sometimes prioritise others before me, I wouldn’t let that come in the way of my happiness. Maybe I can’t choose that today. But I’ll choose it tomorrow. And that keeps me going, on most days. I hope this helps you get through too, despite what small or big decision you may be fearing to take right now. It will get better, you’ll see.

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